December 3rd, 2008
|01:59 am - Meet Jake!|
Current Location: at home
Current Mood: sleepy
Current Music: The Passions - I'm In Love With A German Film Star
January 13th, 2008
|01:55 am - Me #23|
Happy belated birthday to me by a couple hours.
It was a weird birthday. It almost felt like a non-event, which is depressing, because that means I'm officially old. I didn't drink, I didn't do anything amazingly fun. I had dinner at a Greek place in Edgewater with my 'rents. It was amazing food. I went to Cliff's and bought my usual stack of comic books. I bought some old records at a shop in Edgewater too.
However, I'm saving most of my money for FX at the end of the month which is sort of my big belated geek fest birthday event. Tomorrow I'm going to Buca di Beppo for an extended family birthday lunch - we do Sunday lunch anyway, but this week we're eating food at a restaurant not entirely inhabited by people in retirement. I kind of hope to get the pope room, I haven't been there since the most recent one was appointed. Mmmm, sacrilicious.
Oh well, I wanted to go to bed earlier - I stay up for too late for absolutely no reason, except maybe ridiculous late night updates of ONTD - and it's past 2. Not early, but better than 3 or 4.
I leave you with a WTF quote thanks to my television...
"You sort of broke new ground, because you're the first little person to compete for Miss New York" ~ La La on I Love New York 2's Midget Mac
Current Location: halfway to a coma
Current Mood: calm
Current Music: The Whyte Boots - Nightmare
January 8th, 2008
|07:38 pm - Political Compatability Quiz - Thanks Kelly!|
87% Chris Dodd
87% Barack Obama
86% Dennis Kucinich
85% John Edwards
84% Bill Richardson
83% Mike Gravel
82% Hillary Clinton
78% Joe Biden
41% Rudy Giuliani
32% John McCain
27% Mike Huckabee
25% Mitt Romney
24% Ron Paul
20% Tom Tancredo
16% Fred Thompson
2008 Presidential Candidate Matching Quiz
Current Location: in front of the computer...
Current Mood: thoughtful
Current Music: Spanky & Our Gang - Give A Damn
January 4th, 2008
|12:25 am - Looking Back...|
Well, it's January 4! Happy New Year everybody. I was hoping to sit down and consider my 2007 before it was actually over, but maybe it's even better now since the whole year is entirely behind me. 2007 was a bizarre year for me. My final semester of college and then this big vacancy of living that brings me to now. There's so much that's happened for my friends and for me, it's been something of a blank slate. People have gotten engaged, people are getting divorced, people are getting jobs, people are doing grad school.
At the moment, I honestly only care about grad school, but I still have this anxious worry over it that leaves me uneasy and mentally fatigued. I don't feel like an independent human being in some respects - I went to school in my hometown and lived at home, when people usually get the fuck out when they go to college. I mean, it's better than some situations I can think of for people I went to high school with - kids, shotgun marriages, Wal-Mart jobs, nutso Christian universities - but I feel completely detached from reality. There's the DeLand reality and the post-college reality, and they don't exactly mesh. I'm torn and unsure, and my living and job situation leave me in this holding position. My mom is entirely too passive aggressive to be helpful and my dad will listen, but that's about it.
I have to say, some of 2007 was amazing. My last year at Stetson was probably my most rewarding as far as enjoying my classes and spending time with my friends. During my last semester I went with Katie, Josh and Christina to see Jon give a philosophy presentation in Orlando, which was more fun than it probably sounds. I hung out on campus writing papers constantly, but with people around that I'll never forget and will probably always consider friends. Hearing stories about crazy campus bullshit, hanging out at the apartments, grabbing sushi at Wasabi, having dinner bought by a drunk friend's dad. Good times. I managed to write about disco music and comic books and get legitimately good grades - it was great. Honestly, I don't feel like expounding at paragraph length about everything, so I'm gonna resort to bullet points.
* Going to FX 2007 in late January; meeting Kristen Bell, Bianca Lawson, Andy Hallett and William Katt; and buying lots of crap.
* Spending 24 hours solid in the apartment computer lab without sleep on two separate occasions.
* Semi-regular breakfast in the commons with the folks in college grammar.
* Going with Katie and Josh to the political science majors senior party at Nylen's house. I should have had a mint julep. Oh well.
* Joe trying to get me to loudly scream "fuck" to release my stress while in the computer lab and being to drained to make it work.
* Running into Harrison and finally getting that Flying Spaghetti Monster t-shirt.
* Losing the tassel on my mortarboard while waiting in line to graduate, making my dad buy a new one and then having the mortarboard
not even fit my head anyway.
* Actually graduating.
* Getting hit in the head by someone's flying mortarboard.
* Going to Disney World for the first time since I was a kid with my aunt and her family.
* Thursday nights in the fall with Crystal, Crystal, Ugly Betty, Grey's Anatomy and Papa John's.
* The ridiculous prep work for having Christmas at home and then the strange feeling after it's over.
Honestly, once I graduated, day to day life became a little samey and unmemorable. I definitely feel the need to get myself back on track with pursuing grad school and focusing on my future. However, I first need to shake off my New Year depressed haze. Then get the GRE out of the way and finally get my car fixed up. I need to make baby steps, because I'm really not sure about what's gonna happen, despite being determined with what I wanna do - I'm just shakey on getting it all to happen right now. I'm hoping 2008 will be a bigger, better year for me. I need to actively live my life, not worry about how I'm going to do it. I really hope 2008 is bigger and better for everyone. Later folks, maybe soon? My birthday is coming up on the 12th and I'm going to FX 2007 at the end of the month, so I might have stuff to talk about. Hopefully there will be more stuff too. Anyway, good luck in '08!
Current Location: at home
Current Mood: contemplative
Current Music: some reality show on Bravo
September 28th, 2007
|01:59 pm - Gloomy|
I seriously feel like my life has become a warped black hole.
I haven't put the effort into a lengthy post in some time, seriously month even. My journal's become more of an outlet to let me post comments on Oh No They Didn't. Since my last major post, I had my 22nd birthday, went to FX 2007, plodded through my last semester with some of my best friends, did 70+ pages of senior research on diversity issues and comic book fans, spent two nights on campus in the computer lab without sleep, graduated from college with a non-fitting mortarboard, and have subsequently faded into nothingness. Well, actually, I did go to Disney, which was a lot of fun.
I am frozen and confused about what to do next. I'm also kind of sad because I miss people. Katie and John are doing grad school stuff in Gainesville and they want me to go their too. Sarah is having similarly frustrated post-grad experiences to me, but with less reason. Harrison finally escaped Stetson and resumed the life in CT that he actually wants instead of whatever he got down here. Luckily, Crystal is doing her grad work here still, so I can hang out with her and there a few other folks still around to do stuff with, while I wallow in my own indecision.
Honestly, it's not even indecision. I know what I want to do, I'm just anxious about making a huge definitive next step. Going to college was a positive but not major change in the way I lived. Stetson is in my hometown. I stayed at home. Which makes moving a much bigger concept than it should be. My universe is a tiny space in my home and relocating with no previous independent history is... necessary and a wonderful idea but makes me nervous. Ultimately, I want to do things a bit at a time. I don't really want to go to Gainesville for the long term. I do want to go there and get back in the groove of higher education and adjust to distance from home, but my goal is the pop culture masters at Bowling Green in Ohio. Ohio. Ohio is practically a world apart from Florida. But approaching popular culture as a point of academic study. It's so my thing. It's how I made it through American Studies. Hell, it's even how I made it through sociology and WGS. After getting the masters, I'm hoping for more school - maybe more AS stuff or maybe English? Something that will allow me to do higher education as a career with teaching and such. If not that, then something I can use to write about stuff. Hopefully I'll have more of an attention span by then.
Oh well, life isn't entirely gloomy. I bought "Knocked Up" on DVD yesterday and plan on watching it with Crystal sometime soon. New TV has brought me some definite enjoyment. My favorite new shows so far are "Chuck" and "Private Practice" with "Dirty Sexy Money" following. So far, "Ugly Betty" has impressed me most with the season debut, but I liked "Grey's Anatomy" and "Heroes" too. "Gossip Girl" was total trash when I saw it last week, and it was great. I sometimes feel like I thrive on trash just as much as treasure.
Oh well, I needed to post. Needed to vent and call out the tiny violin player. So, here goes a new post. Maybe more new posts will follow, fingers crossed.
Current Location: home...
Current Mood: blah
Current Music: Rough Trade - High School Confidential
June 11th, 2007
|04:26 am - Insomnia? How Many Sentences Make A Paragraph? What?|
I haven't posted anything substantial here in a while - what is it, practically six months since my last genuine update? Considering it's well past when I should be asleep, it'll have to be a bit longer. I still feel like I should post something though. I guess this brief reflection will do. Does this even count as a reflection? This brief pointless string of sentences will do. If you're lucky, and you actually even care, I might muster the motivation for a second entry when I wake up, perhaps with something actually worth reading. Yay!
Current Location: my bed, soon anyway
Current Mood: grumpy
Current Music: Joni Mitchell - Raised On Robbery
May 16th, 2007
|12:35 am - The I Watch Too Much TV Meme|
- Bold all of the following TV shows which you've ever seen 3 or more episodes of in your lifetime.
- Italicize a show if you're positive you've seen every episode of it.
- If you want, add up to 3 additional shows (keep the list in alphabetical order).
Current Location: My bedroom
Current Music: Poe - Trigger Happy Jack (Drive By A Go Go)
May 7th, 2007
|12:33 am - Do It.|
Summarize me in one sentence:
Where did we meet:
Take a stab at my middle name:
How long have you known me:
When is the last time that we saw each other:
Do I drink:
Do I smoke:
Do I do Drugs:
Am I happy:
Am I a good person:
What was your first impression of upon meeting me/seeing me:
What's one of my favorite things to do:
Who Do i love more than my life:
Am I funny:
Have you ever made me smile..if so when?
What's my favorite type of music:
Have you ever seen me cry:
Can I sing?:
What is the best feature about me:
Am I shy or outgoing:
Am I a rebel or do I follow the rules:
Do I have any special talents:
Would you call me preppy, average, sporty, punk, hippie, glam, nerdy, snobby, or something else (what):
Have you ever hugged me:
Have you ever seen me naked:
What is my favorite food:
Have you ever had a crush on me:
Am i a good cook:
Am I dating anyone:
If there was one good nickname for me, what would it be:
What's your favorite memory of me:
What is my worst habit:
Do i like corn dogs:
Have you ever had a dream about me? If so, what?:
If you and I were stranded on a desert island, what is the one thing I would bring?
Are we friends:
Whats my religion?
Am I family oriented?
Who is my best friend?
Will you repost this so I can do it?
Current Location: My bedroom
Current Mood: silly
Current Music: Tommie Sunshine presents Ultra.Rock Remixed
January 11th, 2007
|10:49 am - So... The New Semester|
Well, classes have started for my last semester as a Stetson undergrad. I have to say my feelings are mixed about that, and I'm not sure I could possibly convey them effectively here.
So far, classes seem much more initially oppressive than last semester, which is strange considering how overwhelming they were by the end last time. College Grammar with Dr. O has been pretty fun, despite being grammar at 8:30 in the morning. Unfortunately, Masculinity and American Film with Dr. M looks like it will prove stressful. Perhaps it's because the book I need for today just recently came in and reading was required for today or maybe it's because the scheduled screenings for 13 out of 14 required films are on Monday and Wednesdays nights - both evenings in which I have classes. That's kind of annoying. Also annoying is the vacant block of time between 8:30 and 2:30 when I have six hours on campus with nothing to do. At least so far.
Yet again, I have mixed feelings. Dr. O asked me if I want to t.a. again if her current possible t.a. declines the job. Unfortunately, I'm taking 16 credits already and financial compensation seems out of the question. However, it would fill time between 8:30 and 2:30 rather nicely. The only class I can really drop is the French Revolution, which doesn't start for a little while yet. However, I have bought the books for it and it's with Katie and Josh. So I'm invested in it already. However, because it runs from 4-7, it means I can't do film screenings for Dr. M's class. So, again, I have other things invested in dropping it, which probably don't outweigh a class with friends that I've already gotten the books for and already obtained a pass/fail for. I hate how this sort of stuff happens. I'm so torn.
Anyways, my only other class I've had so far is Feminist Philosophy. I really like SPB, but some of the people who were already running at the mouth in class are going to piss me off so much by the end of the semester, I can tell. You didn't need to inject your opinion into everything, the class is massive, it's not just you.
Oh well, I think I'm gonna go. I might sit in on that t.a. class today, just to see how it's going. Even if I can't do the job, I don't see why I can't do that at least for today. Later folks.
Oh, and by the next time I post, I'll be another year older. Happy early birthday to me. Yippee.
Current Location: the dungeon of computer labs
Current Music: none at all
December 29th, 2006
|12:29 am - Briefly Crazed|
I have mixed feelings at the moment. I don't want to get back to school yet, but I don't know what to do with myself. The desire to do something and yet do nothing is creating far too much of a psychological conflict for me.
I need to swap my old computer files from my old computer to this machine soon or else I'll be stuck in a new semester without time to do it. However, I don't know where. It's going to be awkward finding a place to set up the old one. I can tell.
So... I feel the need to post, but nothing to post about. This is a major reason I'm probably away online right now too, I hate the awkwardness of having nothing worth talking about, because you're eating that other person's time when you're just talking with no point.
I went to Wal-Mart tonight. I bought an action figure on clearance for five bucks and "The Good Girl" and "Reality Bites" on DVD for less than five dollars each. I feel kind of dirty for enjoying a Wal-Mart purchase, but that's really cheap for all of those things.
Well... I guess that's it. Maybe I should go to bed or something. Either way, I'm sure I'll post something again soon. If not soon, I'm sure I'll get back here around my birthday in a couple weeks. I'm sure you'll be hotly anticipating that. Later folks!
Current Location: hmm... could it be my bedroom?
Current Mood: blah
Current Music: Joy Division - Love Will Tear Us Apart