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December 3rd, 2008

01:59 am - Meet Jake! Current Location: at home Current Mood: sleepy Current Music: The Passions - I'm In Love With A German Film Star

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March 11th, 2008

10:01 pm - O RLY? Powered By Adult Toys Current Location: The Bedroom Current Mood: whatever Current Music: Goldfrapp - A&E

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January 13th, 2008

01:55 am - Me #23 Happy belated birthday to me by a couple hours. It was a weird birthday. It almost felt like a non-event, which is depressing, because that means I'm officially old. I didn't drink, I didn't do anything amazingly fun. I had dinner at a Greek place in Edgewater with my 'rents. It was amazing food. I went to Cliff's and bought my usual stack of comic books. I bought some old records at a shop in Edgewater too. However, I'm saving most of my money for FX at the end of the month which is sort of my big belated geek fest birthday event. Tomorrow I'm going to Buca di Beppo for an extended family birthday lunch - we do Sunday lunch anyway, but this week we're eating food at a restaurant not entirely inhabited by people in retirement. I kind of hope to get the pope room, I haven't been there since the most recent one was appointed. Mmmm, sacrilicious. Oh well, I wanted to go to bed earlier - I stay up for too late for absolutely no reason, except maybe ridiculous late night updates of ONTD - and it's past 2. Not early, but better than 3 or 4. I leave you with a WTF quote thanks to my television... "You sort of broke new ground, because you're the first little person to compete for Miss New York" ~ La La on I Love New York 2's Midget Mac Current Location: halfway to a coma Current Mood: calm Current Music: The Whyte Boots - Nightmare

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January 8th, 2008

07:38 pm - Political Compatability Quiz - Thanks Kelly! 87% Chris Dodd 87% Barack Obama 86% Dennis Kucinich 85% John Edwards 84% Bill Richardson 83% Mike Gravel 82% Hillary Clinton 78% Joe Biden 41% Rudy Giuliani 32% John McCain 27% Mike Huckabee 25% Mitt Romney 24% Ron Paul 20% Tom Tancredo 16% Fred Thompson 2008 Presidential Candidate Matching Quiz Current Location: in front of the computer... Current Mood: thoughtful Current Music: Spanky & Our Gang - Give A Damn

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January 4th, 2008

12:25 am - Looking Back... Well, it's January 4! Happy New Year everybody. I was hoping to sit down and consider my 2007 before it was actually over, but maybe it's even better now since the whole year is entirely behind me. 2007 was a bizarre year for me. My final semester of college and then this big vacancy of living that brings me to now. There's so much that's happened for my friends and for me, it's been something of a blank slate. People have gotten engaged, people are getting divorced, people are getting jobs, people are doing grad school. At the moment, I honestly only care about grad school, but I still have this anxious worry over it that leaves me uneasy and mentally fatigued. I don't feel like an independent human being in some respects - I went to school in my hometown and lived at home, when people usually get the fuck out when they go to college. I mean, it's better than some situations I can think of for people I went to high school with - kids, shotgun marriages, Wal-Mart jobs, nutso Christian universities - but I feel completely detached from reality. There's the DeLand reality and the post-college reality, and they don't exactly mesh. I'm torn and unsure, and my living and job situation leave me in this holding position. My mom is entirely too passive aggressive to be helpful and my dad will listen, but that's about it. I have to say, some of 2007 was amazing. My last year at Stetson was probably my most rewarding as far as enjoying my classes and spending time with my friends. During my last semester I went with Katie, Josh and Christina to see Jon give a philosophy presentation in Orlando, which was more fun than it probably sounds. I hung out on campus writing papers constantly, but with people around that I'll never forget and will probably always consider friends. Hearing stories about crazy campus bullshit, hanging out at the apartments, grabbing sushi at Wasabi, having dinner bought by a drunk friend's dad. Good times. I managed to write about disco music and comic books and get legitimately good grades - it was great. Honestly, I don't feel like expounding at paragraph length about everything, so I'm gonna resort to bullet points. Other highlights/memories:     * Going to FX 2007 in late January; meeting Kristen Bell, Bianca Lawson, Andy Hallett and William Katt; and buying lots of crap.     * Spending 24 hours solid in the apartment computer lab without sleep on two separate occasions.     * Semi-regular breakfast in the commons with the folks in college grammar.     * Going with Katie and Josh to the political science majors senior party at Nylen's house. I should have had a mint julep. Oh well.     * Joe trying to get me to loudly scream "fuck" to release my stress while in the computer lab and being to drained to make it work.     * Running into Harrison and finally getting that Flying Spaghetti Monster t-shirt.     * Losing the tassel on my mortarboard while waiting in line to graduate, making my dad buy a new one and then having the mortarboard          not even fit my head anyway.     * Actually graduating.     * Getting hit in the head by someone's flying mortarboard.     * Going to Disney World for the first time since I was a kid with my aunt and her family.     * Thursday nights in the fall with Crystal, Crystal, Ugly Betty, Grey's Anatomy and Papa John's.     * The ridiculous prep work for having Christmas at home and then the strange feeling after it's over. Honestly, once I graduated, day to day life became a little samey and unmemorable. I definitely feel the need to get myself back on track with pursuing grad school and focusing on my future. However, I first need to shake off my New Year depressed haze. Then get the GRE out of the way and finally get my car fixed up. I need to make baby steps, because I'm really not sure about what's gonna happen, despite being determined with what I wanna do - I'm just shakey on getting it all to happen right now. I'm hoping 2008 will be a bigger, better year for me. I need to actively live my life, not worry about how I'm going to do it. I really hope 2008 is bigger and better for everyone. Later folks,  maybe soon? My birthday is coming up on the 12th and I'm going to FX 2007 at the end of the month, so I might have stuff to talk about. Hopefully there will be more stuff too. Anyway, good luck in '08! Current Location: at home Current Mood: contemplative Current Music: some reality show on Bravo

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September 28th, 2007

01:59 pm - Gloomy I seriously feel like my life has become a warped black hole. I haven't put the effort into a lengthy post in some time, seriously month even. My journal's become more of an outlet to let me post comments on Oh No They Didn't. Since my last major post, I had my 22nd birthday, went to FX 2007, plodded through my last semester with some of my best friends, did 70+ pages of senior research on diversity issues and comic book fans, spent two nights on campus in the computer lab without sleep, graduated from college with a non-fitting mortarboard, and have subsequently faded into nothingness. Well, actually, I did go to Disney, which was a lot of fun. I am frozen and confused about what to do next. I'm also kind of sad because I miss people. Katie and John are doing grad school stuff in Gainesville and they want me to go their too. Sarah is having similarly frustrated post-grad experiences to me, but with less reason. Harrison finally escaped Stetson and resumed the life in CT that he actually wants instead of whatever he got down here. Luckily, Crystal is doing her grad work here still, so I can hang out with her and there a few other folks still around to do stuff with, while I wallow in my own indecision. Honestly, it's not even indecision. I know what I want to do, I'm just anxious about making a huge definitive next step. Going to college was a positive but not major change in the way I lived. Stetson is in my hometown. I stayed at home. Which makes moving a much bigger concept than it should be. My universe is a tiny space in my home and relocating with no previous independent history is... necessary and a wonderful idea but makes me nervous. Ultimately, I want to do things a bit at a time. I don't really want to go to Gainesville for the long term. I do want to go there and get back in the groove of higher education and adjust to distance from home, but my goal is the pop culture masters at Bowling Green in Ohio. Ohio. Ohio is practically a world apart from Florida. But approaching popular culture as a point of academic study. It's so my thing. It's how I made it through American Studies. Hell, it's even how I made it through sociology and WGS.  After getting the masters, I'm hoping for more school - maybe more AS stuff or maybe English? Something that will allow me to do higher education as a career with teaching and such. If not that, then something I can use to write about stuff. Hopefully I'll have more of an attention span by then. Oh well, life isn't entirely gloomy. I bought "Knocked Up" on DVD yesterday and plan on watching it with Crystal sometime soon. New TV has brought me some definite enjoyment. My favorite new shows so far are "Chuck" and "Private Practice" with "Dirty Sexy Money" following. So far, "Ugly Betty" has impressed me most with the season debut, but I liked "Grey's Anatomy" and "Heroes" too. "Gossip Girl" was total trash when I saw it last week, and it was great. I sometimes feel like I thrive on trash just as much as treasure. Oh well, I needed to post. Needed to vent and call out the tiny violin player. So, here goes a new post. Maybe more new posts will follow, fingers crossed. Current Location: home... Current Mood: blah Current Music: Rough Trade - High School Confidential

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June 11th, 2007

04:26 am - Insomnia? How Many Sentences Make A Paragraph? What? I haven't posted anything substantial here in a while - what is it, practically six months since my last genuine update? Considering it's well past when I should be asleep, it'll have to be a bit longer. I still feel like I should post something though. I guess this brief reflection will do. Does this even count as a reflection? This brief pointless string of sentences will do. If you're lucky, and you actually even care, I might muster the motivation for a second entry when I wake up, perhaps with something actually worth reading. Yay! Current Location: my bed, soon anyway Current Mood: grumpy Current Music: Joni Mitchell - Raised On Robbery

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May 16th, 2007

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May 7th, 2007

12:33 am - Do It. My name: Summarize me in one sentence: Where did we meet: Take a stab at my middle name: How long have you known me: When is the last time that we saw each other: Do I drink: Do I smoke: Do I do Drugs: Am I happy: Am I a good person: What was your first impression of upon meeting me/seeing me: What's one of my favorite things to do: Who Do i love more than my life: Am I funny: Have you ever made me smile..if so when? What's my favorite type of music: Have you ever seen me cry: Can I sing?: What is the best feature about me: Am I shy or outgoing: Am I a rebel or do I follow the rules: Do I have any special talents: Would you call me preppy, average, sporty, punk, hippie, glam, nerdy, snobby, or something else (what): Have you ever hugged me: Kissed me?: Have you ever seen me naked: What is my favorite food: Have you ever had a crush on me: Am i a good cook: Am I dating anyone: If there was one good nickname for me, what would it be: What's your favorite memory of me: What is my worst habit: Do i like corn dogs: Have you ever had a dream about me? If so, what?: If you and I were stranded on a desert island, what is the one thing I would bring? Are we friends: Whats my religion? Am I family oriented? Who is my best friend? Will you repost this so I can do it? Current Location: My bedroom Current Mood: silly Current Music: Tommie Sunshine presents Ultra.Rock Remixed

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January 11th, 2007

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December 29th, 2006

12:29 am - Briefly Crazed I have mixed feelings at the moment. I don't want to get back to school yet, but I don't know what to do with myself. The desire to do something and yet do nothing is creating far too much of a psychological conflict for me. I need to swap my old computer files from my old computer to this machine soon or else I'll be stuck in a new semester without time to do it. However, I don't know where. It's going to be awkward finding a place to set up the old one. I can tell. So... I feel the need to post, but nothing to post about. This is a major reason I'm probably away online right now too, I hate the awkwardness of having nothing worth talking about, because you're eating that other person's time when you're just talking with no point. I went to Wal-Mart tonight. I bought an action figure on clearance for five bucks and "The Good Girl" and "Reality Bites" on DVD for less than five dollars each. I feel kind of dirty for enjoying a Wal-Mart purchase, but that's really cheap for all of those things. Well... I guess that's it. Maybe I should go to bed or something. Either way, I'm sure I'll post something again soon. If not soon, I'm sure I'll get back here around my birthday in a couple weeks. I'm sure you'll be hotly anticipating that. Later folks! Current Location: hmm... could it be my bedroom? Current Mood: blah Current Music: Joy Division - Love Will Tear Us Apart

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December 26th, 2006

12:26 pm - Okay.... Fall Semester 2006 + Christmas Well, I'm finally getting to that post. Perhaps I should start with the grades and work from there? I think so. First, I want to make note of finals week. It was the worst experience I've ever had at Stetson. It was the most incredibly stressful and horribly prolonged week of exams and papers, especially considering what was due the week before during the last week of classes. That week I had my Star Trek seminar paper due, a writing workshop for EH121, a research paper due for Social Inequality, and my research prospectus for Dr. Croce. For finals, I had a brief reflective essay, a longer take home essay, two monster take home exams, and an annotated mock syllabus for a class of my own design. I had an overwhelming workload this semester, and needless to say, I snapped. The paper for sociology was a day late. The prospectus was several days late (which was a running problem with research prep). My work for Star Trek was in on time. Then Wednesday, I had the worst meldtown possible. Crystal said it was a panic attack, which is possible. Either way, I had three massive assignments due within the next two days and none of them close to finished. I hadn't slept. I worked and worked and freaked out. So, finals got their first extension. My first big final was due later that day instead of at 10 that morning, and my next big assignments moved to Friday. Friday at noon. Again, I worked and worked, and ended up getting another extension on my sociology final. I felt the an awful student at that point, but I wasn't going to turn in shit when I've been doing so well this semester. So, finals ended up stretching well into this Monday. Yes, this Monday. All of this ridiculousness considered, now for my grades: Teaching Apprenticeship (Popular Culture): A Teaching Apprenticeship (Research & Argumentation): A Modern America 1900-1940: A- Star Trek: A- Social Inequality: B+ Prep for Senior Research: B I have to say, I'm pretty damn happy with these grades. I worked my ass off for the apprenticeship and it makes me happy that it shows in the grade. That A and the A- for Modern America are the first As I've ever gotten in classes with Dr. M. I've had five classes with her before those, so it's taken some time, but it was worth it. The grade for Star Trek makes me happy - and curious as to how I did on my seminar paper and my final. That class and the half of the teaching apprenticeship with Dr. O were so great, I'm really glad I got to do both this semester. Social Inequality. This is where I'm frustrated. I know a B+ is great, but the only bad great I got in the class this semester was a C on the horrible in class midterm. Every other assignment was an A, including the out of class midterm which I scored perfectly on. However, although my work was consistant, maybe my last stuff sucked. Who knows, because it seemed like I'd at least get an A-. Nope. Research prep was sort of dissapointing, but I'm cool with it since the class itself was kind of dissapointing anyway. I didn't make enough time for it with everything else. Of course, with the real deal starting next semester/month, I'll be giving it a hell of a lot more attention. So, fall semester is over. I was on campus late into the night pretty much every day and I had hung out with Sarah, Katie, and Josh pretty much the whole time. It was a lot of fun despite being a lot of stress. It's kinda sad that Sarah has graduated now and Greg has come back to amplify Josh's craziness. Oh well, the best times seem to be the ones that only last a little while anyway. I think I ran into Shayna more this semester than last semester when we "worked" together. I'm really glad I no longer work in the art department, because I don't think the semester would have been nearly as enjoyable if I had continued on. Of course, the semester had its down sides. The meltdown at the end was a huge one. Another was being preached at earlier this semester and having my personal beliefs probed and mutilated in awkward conversation. It still kind of pisses me off. Another big one is not going to see Joan Jett when the option arose. Hmmm... perhaps the worst part was not seeing some friends that often. This one goes out to Ali and Harrison, who I only saw a few times and who happen to be two of my favorite people at Stetson. So, Ali, I hope you have a kick ass time in Scotland. And Harrison, we need to hang out or something in the spring, because it'll be my last semester and we never get to. So... Christmas! Finals spilled into this past week, which being the week before Christmas was its own special kind of stress filled hell. I had to finish shopping, clean my disaster area of a bedroom, wrap my presents, and deal with my mom. None of which are easy to wrangle around the holidays. I was up until 4:30am on Christmas morning dusting and putting boxes in my closet, because my bedroom is just too small for all my crap. Of course, you're thinking now he's gonna get more crap and have even less space. Yes. This is true. Anyways, the shopping was a pain in the ass. I got most of the stuff fairly easily, but my dad's present - the dvd boxset of Bruce Campbell's Brisco County Jr - was a trek through Wal-Mart, Sears, and Blockbuster before resorting to one day shipping on Amazon. Everything came together though. Christmas was a great time. I pretty much got what I wanted and some other stuff I never thought about, but love. I got a stack of new cds, some great new t-shirts, some cool dvd boxsets, a new wallet, a really cool new stereo, ummm... and a pop-up book of celebrity meltdowns, among other things. Everyone seemed to really enjoy their presents that I got for them, which makes me happy. The food was good, but I gorged on appetizers (my mom made buffalo chicken dip and my aunt brought tomato/basil/mozerella skewers) and wasn't particularly hungry until dessert, when I gorged again. I felt a little like shit after that, and napped for about five hours after. I'm still not way hungry, but I think I could eat something. I might in a few. Tonight I have Christmas at my Gramma's. I remember when I was younger we'd do Christmas with both sides of my family on the day itself, not at the same time of course, but slowly it's drifted to two different days. I wonder how that's going to go. Anyways, I suppose this qualifies as a real entry, right? I hope every had a Merry Christmas and a Happy Hannukah. Later folks! Current Location: the newly cleaned bedroom Current Mood: impressed Current Music: Dannii Minogue - Disrememberance

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December 23rd, 2006

06:05 pm - Womble Womble Shake Shake My Peculiar Aristocratic Title is: Sir Kenny the Antique of Frogging over Womble Get your Peculiar Aristocratic Title Okay, now for a real post... Current Location: my bedroom, where else? Current Music: Hall & Oates - Method Of Modern Love

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December 20th, 2006

04:29 am - I Promise So, the semester officially ended for me yesterday with my last piece of work turned in (yeah, Monday after finals really ended, looooong story). I haven't posted in ages, but I should be cleaning, which means no substantial posts for now. However, I plan on posting something extensive (hopefully) around the time grades are released, so I can reflect on the whole semester, which should be... fun, maybe. I have to say it was the most soul crushing yet rewarding semester I've had, give or take a few things. But I'll get to that later. So, I suppose I'm promising you (whoever reads this) an update soon. A real one. Not just a promise of one or a personality quiz stolen from Harrison's journal. Now, off I go to clean and then sleep, and then wake up and clean and finish up Christmas shopping. I don't know what's more stressful, the week before Christmas or finals. Well, slightly hyperbolic, but whatever. I'll see you within the week folks. Current Location: my disaster area of a bedroom Current Mood: determined Current Music: The Blow Monkeys - Digging Your Scene (Extended Mix)

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December 2nd, 2006

03:45 am - Okay, Why Not? Current Location: bedroom... close to bed... yes... Current Mood: drained Current Music: Lily Allen - LDN

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November 9th, 2006

01:20 pm - Long Time Gone I haven't posted in quite a while, and I'm pretty sure there won't be much substance to this one, but hey, it's better than 671 of me being the most recent post. My computer was fixed for under 200 dollars, but I still pulled almost all of my savings for the new one, which is great. It's not a massive difference, but it's newer and faster, which means it wins over old and slow in this situation. This semester has been insane. This week especially. I had to present my "Star Trek" project yesterday which was successful. How could it not be with bad fan fiction parody and the Miss Klingon Empire Beauty Pageant. I got an A- on my "Behind the Mask of Chivalry" paper, which was a first time A on an actual paper for Dr. M since I was a freshman. It was exciting. This morning I did my "Miracle on 34th Street" presentation, which was somewhat successful. Technology was a problem, as it often is, but it all worked out. The class enjoyed the idea of "Santa's Slay" a little too much however. I do have morbid curiousity to see that though. I mean, Santa Claus as the killer spawn of Satan? Sounds like a holiday classic. Oh well, I'm starving and even though repeat visits to the Commons yesterday makes the food so unappealing, it's not like the Hat Rack is much better at this point. Hello salad bar. Oh, and yay. Clownface lost her election and Britney dumped KFed and is slowly castrating him in the court of public opinion. Good stuff. I mean, yeah, Permatan won and KFed's album will always be out there now, but still, good stuff. Current Location: the computer lab across from hell Current Mood: complacent Current Music: none, wishing I had kept the new Nellie McKay cd in my stuff

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October 19th, 2006

09:30 pm - More of Me HowManyOfMe.com There are: 671 people with my name in the U.S.A. How many have your name? Current Location: in the bedroom Current Mood: whatever Current Music: Poe - Angry Johnny

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October 11th, 2006

01:16 am - In Secret Well, I'm using my mom's computer again real quick before I head to bed. I bought a new computer. I am low on savings now, but I guess it was worth it. The old computer had its issues, but I'm hoping to get it fixed and shift my files over as soon as possible. I have been in meltdown mode since this morning, and it hasn't been cool. I can cope with research paper, class presentations, and teaching the class. I can. But when my computer dies... Anyway, I'm slowly figuring out the new machine, which is just like the old machine, but newer. Yeah. I really want to move as much of my old stuff to the new thing as soon as possible. All those mp3s, the random pictures I've found online, my favorite websites, my personal files and most of my Stetson work from the past three years. The computer lasted three years. I'm not sure if that's good or bad. It's been worse. I really hope I can. I didn't want to lose three+ years of memories for one new computer, even if I needed a new one. I am still in meltdown mode. Tomorrow I have to do my precis which I should have done today. I need to do more research. I have so much to do and write and read. I'm going to explode. Wish me luck. Boost my confidence. That whole thing. I'm exhausted and torn and going to bed. Later! Current Location: my mom's chair in the family office Current Mood: discontent Current Music: none

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October 10th, 2006

11:56 am - The Demise My computer has died. It could possibly be fixed, and might be fixed eventually, but for now, it's dead. The power outage last night took its life. I hope I can save my files and such, some of which mean a lot to me for whatever reasons. Some I could do without. But for now. Dead. This is upsetting to me, but I'm going to get a new computer tonight, even though that means no more savings account practically. The computer - with the virus that would never die and random video card problems and the slowness... it was time I think. I really hope I can save my personal files though. Anyone know of a way to help me out in that respect? Anyways, I must go, I'm using my mom's computer and I need to be cleaning. Well, I need to be doing school work, but cleaning for now. I want to update on stuff from before fall break, but I guess that'll wait or won't happen. Later folks. Current Location: the family office Current Mood: annoyed Current Music: none

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September 27th, 2006

09:39 pm - Hmmm... Acceptable Modern, Cool Nerd 52 % Nerd, 65% Geek, 34% Dork For The Record: A Nerd is someone who is passionate about learning/being smart/academia. A Geek is someone who is passionate about some particular area or subject, often an obscure or difficult one. A Dork is someone who has difficulty with common social expectations/interactions. You scored better than half in Nerd and Geek, earning you the title of: Modern, Cool Nerd. Nerds didn't use to be cool, but in the 90's that all changed. It used to be that, if you were a computer expert, you had to wear plaid or a pocket protector or suspenders or something that announced to the world that you couldn't quite fit in. Not anymore. Now, the intelligent and geeky have eked out for themselves a modicum of respect at the very least, and "geek is chic." The Modern, Cool Nerd is intelligent, knowledgable and always the person to call in a crisis (needing computer advice/an arcane bit of trivia knowledge). They are the one you want as your lifeline in Who Wants to Be a Millionaire (or the one up there, winning the million bucks)! Congratulations! Also, you might want to check out some of my other tests if you're interested in any of the following: Buffy the Vampire Slayer Professional Wrestling Love & Sexuality America/Politics Thanks Again! -- THE NERD? GEEK? OR DORK? TEST My test tracked 3 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 99% on nerdiness You scored higher than 99% on geekosity You scored higher than 99% on dork points Link: The Nerd? Geek? or Dork? Test written by donathos on OkCupid Free Online Dating, home of the The Dating Persona Test Current Location: at home, in the privacy of my bedroom Current Mood: geeky Current Music: New Order - Bizarre Love Triangle (Single Remix)

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